God Did a Lot with My Little: How Consistency, Surrender, and Whole LOTTA Grace Changed Everything
God Did a Lot with My Little
What started with a devotional turned into a deep, transformational journey with Christ.
In 2019, my journey of seeking Christ began with something simple — a daily devotional. Every morning, I’d spend just a few minutes reading and reflecting. At the time, I didn’t even realize how powerful that small act was. I was still lukewarm, still under the illusion that I was in control of my life. Spiritually blind and lacking understanding. But even then, God was working.
What I didn’t know then was that those few minutes of consistency were not wasted. God can do so much with our little. While I was still feeding on the world for the rest of my day, something deeper was being stirred in me. I wasn’t just developing a routine — I was developing a dependency. That devotional became a place of comfort, connection, and clarity. It was meeting a need I didn’t even have the language for yet.
Yes, I was still struggling. But God is intentional, and He wastes nothing — not even our confusion.
Faithfulness Over Performance
Following Christ doesn’t mean you’ll always get it right. It doesn’t mean you’re less spiritual if you haven’t spoken in tongues or if your prayers don’t sound “mature.”
Let’s be honest — comparison is a thief. And thankfully, by the grace of God, I didn’t wrestle too deeply with it in the beginning because I was seeking Him privately. For the first four years, no one even knew I was pursuing a relationship with God.
That privacy gave me space to grow without pressure. I wasn’t performing — I was learning how to be faithful.
Consistency Looks Different in Every Season
Let’s clear something up: consistency doesn’t mean you always wake up at 6 a.m., Bible open, worship playing, spending an hour in deep intercession.
Sometimes consistency looks like:
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6:30 a.m. and 15 minutes of stillness.
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8:10 a.m. and a quick verse on your phone.
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10:00 a.m. and 45 minutes of journaling.
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Or no quiet time at all — but a conversation with someone at the grocery store where you shared the goodness of God.
When you choose what’s contrary to your flesh — that’s worship.
There were seasons when my kitchen became my altar. As I prepared meals for my family, worship would rise up in me. The floor beneath me bore witness to so many unexpected altar calls. God stretched me to see that He doesn’t live in our schedules. He meets us right where we are — and never leaves us there.
God Doesn’t Want Perfection, He Wants Surrender
One of the biggest roots I had to confront was perfectionism. God showed me that its root was pride, but its trigger was a deep mother wound.
My mother wasn’t able to nurture, support, or love me in the ways I needed. So I grew up believing I had to earn love. That performance would equal acceptance. That if I was good enough, someone would choose me.
But God doesn’t work like that. He isn’t impressed by our performance. What He desires is a surrendered heart. One that comes to Him open, not polished. When we open our hearts to Him, we come into agreement with a simple truth: I don’t have to earn what He freely gives. I just have to be willing to receive.
His grace is sufficient.
Even when I showed up late. Even when I wasn’t perfect.
He still met me. He still honored my effort. Because He saw my heart.
God Matures You, Not to Pressure You — But to Prepare You
As I continued to show up, even in my small ways, something began to happen — God started maturing me. Not because I had it all together, but because I gave Him room to work.
It’s not me who started the good work in me — it’s Him.
And the Word says He will be faithful to complete it. (Philippians 1:6)
God matures us not to crush us under pressure, but to prepare us for purpose. He sees the road ahead. He doesn’t waste anything — not even our smallest “yes.” And in the most unexpected moments, He gives us glimpses of hope that remind us why we can trust Him.
That’s why it’s so important to keep your eyes on Jesus. Because even your now is part of your next.
Growth Requires Faith, Not Comparison
Every level you reach in your walk with God requires a new measure of faith, discipline, and intentionality. And sometimes, the biggest obstacle isn’t the enemy — it’s your inner critic.
You may look at others in a different season and feel like you’re behind. You may set goals that feel small or insignificant compared to someone else’s. But don’t forget: they’re on a different journey. Don’t compare your planting season to someone else’s harvest.
Be intentional. Be honest. Be faithful.
Some people can’t go where God is taking you — and that’s okay. Set boundaries. Have faith in what His Word says. And show up — even if you show up late.
Showing up late is still showing up.
That’s discipline. That’s grace in action.
It’s not about perfection. It’s about faithfulness.
Faith That Moves, and Hope That Grows
The Bible says faith without works is dead (James 2:17).
The Shunammite woman had faith — and she moved on it. She used her resources to build a room for the prophet Elisha, and God blessed her. But her faith was tested when the very thing she was blessed with — her son — died.
She told Elisha not to get her hopes up.
But in order to stretch her faith, God had to raise her hopes.
Because faith is the substance of things hoped for — and if your hope is low, your faith can’t stretch far.
Sometimes God will let your hope rise just to deepen your trust in Him again.
You’re Not Falling Short — You’re Being Stretched
As you grow, God’s grace never disappears — but accountability increases. Not to condemn you, but to form you. Growth isn’t about striving — it’s about surrendering more deeply.
The deeper you go with God, the more you’ll release —
Old ways of thinking.
Pride.
Desires.
Even people you love.
But the reward is always greater:
More of Him.
You’re not failing.
You’re being stretched.
And God isn’t disappointed in your journey — He’s invested in it.
So arise, daughter.
Your next “yes” may cost you something — but what you gain on the other side is priceless.